It was a natural fear of what may have happened if you achieved your goals rather than the whole process of going for them. You may have had your perception of your own world distorted by the patterns you followed in the past. Blame it on cognition or, even more, on prejudice! Our view on the world is individual; however it is influenced by patterns and associations.
In most cases, we believe in what others do, especially when most of the people we know or look up to have the same beliefs. I call this the "flock effect" but NLP refers to this phenomena as the "Bandwagon effect". You may argue that you, as an individual, have personal opinions about the world and that you don't copy, share or mimic others... but in reality you do. Just remember the diets you may have followed in the past just because others in your associated groups did. As much as we adore them, the Beatles, the Stones and so many others would not have been so famous in the absence of the Bandwagon effect. So, perhaps because you were part of the flock, you pursued strategies that weren't necessarily followed by success just because you've copied what others have done to achieve it.
To be honest, some of the people whose beliefs you may have shared may have been wrong in the first instance, but you couldn't see that because your view on the world may have been distorted. Now, when you look back at the goals you haven't achieved in the past and at others that may have influenced you, positively or negatively, what do you see? Would you agree that you sympathised with people in your group just because you liked something about them? Perhaps that little aspect in their personalities covered things that you may have not liked about them if you were able to drop the rose tinted glasses.. We call this the "Halo effect" and you are not the only one to experience it.
Just remember that you cannot control the whole Universe but you can control yourself. "Who controls the bus? You are!" as Richard Bandler, one of the founders of NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) said. Therefore, if you really want success, start with you. Change aspects that stay in the way of excellence and mould yourself in the person who is able to handle success. Do you want personal achievement, perhaps getting your body in shape, finding love, keeping love, opening your own business and making it an international trend? You can! Find the resources to alter your misconceptions and prejudice and you can conquer the world! Download and complete the assessment on top of this post and work on yourself. Power up for success!